Mis Pensamientos Que Me Hacen Quererme

Quisiera saber adónde viajará esta vida que tengo. ¿Cuáles serán las aventuras que traerá el camino donde navego? No creo tener miedo de los acontecimientos que me esperan. Tampoco creo que estoy feliz con anticipación. Creo que es la incertidumbre del que será de mi y el no saber cuánto tiempo tengo. No soy tan vieja en edad humana, es mas muchos pensaran que soy demasiado jóven en tener estos pensamientos. Pero no puedo evitar en contemplar mi futuro.

Siempre he dicho que mi destino es lo que yo decido que sea. Creo que enrealidad yo decido el camino, pero no tengo ninguna idea de los pasos que me esperan ni las decisiones que voy a tener que forzarme en tomar. De hoy en dia, creo haber hecho buenas decisiones. Pero tambien puedo admitir que hay días que quisiera que mi vida fuera un poco diferente. Pero me consuelo en poder reflejar en lo que tengo, lo qué he hecho, visto y he podido participar. Mis memorias son buenas y malas, pero forman lo que es ser yo. Y por lo total, estoy segura de tener amor por mi.

I had struggled for days to put my thoughts to words on paper (screen in this case). I gave in to my creativity and began writing in Spanish. I still don't know why I can form creative phrases better in Spanish. My thoughts are almost always in English, my dreams are in English. When it comes to writing however the words just seem to flow out my mind with great ease when I think of them in Spanish. Curious to know what I wrote? It was just another 'to be or not to be' moment of contemplation for my future.

Translation...

I wish I knew where this life I have will travel to. What will be the adventures that will come from this road that I am on? I do not believe I am scared of the events that await me. I also do not believe that I am happy with anticipation. I think it's the uncertainty for what will be of me and not knowing how much time I will have to be me. I am not that old in human years, in fact I am sure many believe I am far to young to have these thoughts. That being said, I cannot avoid contemplating on my future.

I have always said that my destiny is what I decide it to be. In reality I believe I decide the paths to take, but I have no idea of the steps that await me nor the decisions that I will be forced to take. As of today, I believe I have made good decisions thus far. However, I can admit that there are days when I wish my life was a little different. I am consoled however in being able to reflect in what I have, what I have done, seen and have been able to participate in. My memories are good and bad, but they form what is to be me. All in all - I love me.