Taking a breath

Hello me

Where have you been?

It's like I was looking for you but you wouldn't come out to play.

Who hurt you? How many have hurt you?
I am not one those people, I am your strength.
I am your spirit and I refuse to see you hide.
I refuse to let you dim your light.


Hello me.
It's nice to see that you have hope again.
I know it hurts to find your way here.
Those feelings you feel, they are real.
They are yours, don't close them off.
They let you know you are alive!

Life is so worth living.
Even with the pain,
the loss of love,
the feeling of not enough...
These are but specks of sand in the vast beach of life.

Live again, hope again, dream again.
I am by your side.

Wish You Well

Welcome back to love

I see you seeing me

There is no denying 

those feelings were real and 

now you finally see

Sorry I've found another

Someone who knew my value from the start

I had a shoulder to cry on when you were not there

I'm staying with someone that doesn't change their mind

I am staying with the one who showed and proved their love

I welcome you back to love

But it is not my love you'll have

Glad your eyes are open 

I'm glad your heart is not dead

I'm not ready to be friends

you weren't there

I have nothing to gain from letting you in

I wish you well.

Hurt

I can only chase you in my thoughts

I've come far enough towards the ledge for you

I would gladly take the leap if told me to

I followed you like an adoring puppy

And now I've hit a wall of emptiness

I don't know what hurts more...

knowing you won't let me in

or

thinking I was nothing, nothing at all

friendship wasn't even on the table 

My heart still hurts.

Mis anhelos de cada dia

Tu mirada me hypnotiza
Tu sonrisa me deshace
Tu silencio me quiebra el alma

Sueño con la possibilidad y esperanza de ser parte de tu vida.
Poder tener tan solo un rincón en tu corazón
y que me digas, yo también te quiero.

Today was a good day.

I am thankful to be alive, to have my health, to have my family to have joy. Sometimes I feel guilty, seeing people around the world not having the opportunities I am lucky to take advantage of. I remind myself I have a purpose. Today I was able to take another step closer towards the goals I've set my mind to. Thank you, God.

All in my mind, all in my heart.

I have to stop

I'm torturing myself

It could have been all in my imagination

the feeling I felt

the feelings I feel

that so called connection

I have to stop

I'm torturing my heart

Could this just be a silly infatuation?

the feelings I felt 

the feelings I feel

it's a serious cry of desperation

I have to stop

I'm wrecking my mind

with my constant interrogation

the feelings I felt

the feelings I feel

It's all a delirious situation

Please let it stop

Answer me now

give me the information

the feelings I felt 

the feelings I feel

should I continue being patient?

- C

Fallen dreams once inspired. They refuse to float and raise hope within. The fire of youth has grown tired and almost faded. Only motivation can reignite and make the flame ardor stronger. We are lost souls looking for the answer to give cause to our fire, to give breath to our passion and direction to our talents.

One of my resolutions for this year is to walk more. I have a goal to walk in the evenings at least 3 times a weeks minimum of 15 minutes each walk. This will do both Rocks and I much good health wise. Today was a bit cold and rainy but I still felt the motivation to get out. We have the cold gear and looks like Rocks enjoyed it.

A photo posted by Araceli Arroyo (@celikins) on Jan 2, 2017 at 3:31pm PST

My dearest beloved dog Charlie passed away this Friday. I still have much heart-ache. I will miss him greatly.

When I was going through my pictures I came across this blog that I have forgotten to add anything into for years. I came across many posts of Charlie and pictures throughout the years. This was such a great find in my time of need and desire to consume all the memories of my eldest fur-kid. Because of this I have proposed myself to write more and do more blog post.


 You are welcome to stop by and read up on the original intent of this blog which sub-title I have not changed since first creating this blog... " Ramblings of the day and ongoing written gibberish from Araceli Arroyo" I will more than likely include pics of my other dogs so I can continue to preserve our memories. Thank you for visiting.

Note to self: Stay strong and fear not the feelings in your heart. Give voice to those thoughts and emotions that you tend to suppress in your heart.

My Oscar Picks

Best Picture - BoyHood, should win... Selma Best Actor - Eddie Redmauyne but they may choose Michael Keaton Best Actress - Juliann Moore Supporting Actor - JK Lewis Supporting Actress - Patricia Arquette Best Director - irañatu Best song - Selma, should win Everything is Awesome